Monday, March 25, 2013

Hallelujah

"Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone
Your whole life waiting on the ring to know you're not alone"

Yes P¡nk. I couldn't have said it any better, but guess what? My man called today.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Cryptic


Aww man. So much going on. So many things are speeding through my mind. I can’t keep up.

John Legend - “Soon as I saw you baby, I had plans. Plans to do it til we have a baby. Even if the world is crazy. Pick some names – boy or girl. Then we’ll change. Change the world… It’s the beginning of forever.”

If I don’t have kids, who will take care of me when I’m old? I’m afraid I’ll be alone.

My grandmother was crying today. She said she has a family but doesn’t have a family. What if that becomes me? Except that my family will be long gone

Emotional. Scruntch my face so I don’t cry.

expressed my love through action this morning. I wanted him to know he was needed. I wanted to feed his soul. Don’t know if I was successful.

Times are difficult. I dream of being 10 or 20 years in. Future love. Different love. Mature love.

Research time. I need to dig into history. Carry the lessons forward. What did you love about me? How can I get that back? How can I be what you need?

I’ve never failed at anything. My universe has shifted. I need to rebuild. I wonder what’s happening. What am I going through? What needs to be learned?

Gotta collect my goals. Gotta do the work. Peaks and valleys.

Valleys - Monday. Peak - Today. Relieved. 
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