"Hey. You know what? Something just clicked. I don’t know a lot of things right now. I’m in the middle of some very hard decisions making this one of the hardest periods in my 24 years on earth. But what I do know is that I want to be somewhere far. I want to sit by the fountains in Paris and people watch. I want to feast my eyes on the architecture of Rome. I want to dance in the Venice sun. I just want to go away and listen to couples speak in their native tongue. I want to admire them. Experience them. I want to wander through cobblestone markets and buy a single peach that’s been kissed by the Roman sun. I want to wear a scarf around my neck and pin my hair up in a bun… Yeah. That’s what I want. If I could have anything I wanted, I’d quit today and be on a plane to Europe tomorrow. But that’s only if I could have anything I wanted… Sheer dreams and desires."
I wrote this two years ago and still feel the same way. I need a life pick me up. The routinue is just starting to get to me, and I know all too well how that feeling can overwhelm. I need a sporadic, spontaneous intervention. Let's go stay in a cottage rental in Massachusetts people. Or walk down the coast of Malibu with the sun on our faces. Let's lay in a field of daisies down in the country and watch the bees circle our heads. I'm serious! I wanna go! Just take me somewhere!!! Anywhere! Just get me out of here!
Showing posts with label fantasy. Show all posts
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Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
Re-Post : Knight In Shining Armor
Goodness gracious! I can't believe I wrote this. I should go back and read some of my stuff more often. This is from July 2007. Enjoy.
"he left it all behind. for the sake of our love. nothing could keep us apart. not distance. not time. nor money. he loved me more than life itself. so he showed up at my door. across the country. with calla lilies and a letter. in his back pocket a ring. you are my perfect view. you are my soul. you are more than everything. perfection for me. so passionate and vigilant. my knight in shining armor. coming to fly me away. standing on my doorstep. kidnapping my heart. you told me to come. so here i am. join with me your love. i swear it'll never end. he came to get me. just like i knew he would. i prayed and prayed. just as promised. finally, my reward. a perfect dream's end. fantasies fullfilled. a girl's hearts content. do i dare ever stop dreaming?
Ladies, I don't care who you are, I know for certain that all of you want a knight in shining armor. We all want our guys to ride in on white horses and save us from the burning tower. We all dream of him saying the perfect thing - telling us that he'll always be there and can't live without us. We all want him to take us in his arms and never let go. It really doesn't matter if you've never met him, if you're currently with him, or you've gone your separate ways, 99% of us crave for that man to run to us on some magical whim. We dream of him 'getting it' one day; of having some life-altering revelation and choosing us over everything else. We fantasize that he'll run out the door and break all barriers and obstacles to catch up to us. Remember that scene in Love Jones where Daruis runs through the train station in hopes of catching Nina? That's what you want, isn't it? Believe me, I know. We crave for men to have that burning passion for us that makes it sure he'll do anything and everything; that he won't take no for an answer. You want him to tell you that he understands, he grew, and he changed. Even if you haven't said anything, you want him to magically know your heart's desires and say that he gets it. You want him to say that he's an idiot, and he would be even more of an idiot to loose you or let you walk away. You want your man to run up to you with passion in his heart and tears in his eyes, bearing his entire soul. Men ask us all the time what we want. They tell us to just tell them what to do. Fortunately, the answer is pretty universal. It's pretty much the same for all of us. We want a knight in shining armor. We want him to 'get it' and then proceed to overcome mountains to save us. It's no secret that we're emotional, fantasy-driven, human beings. But in this day and age, we surpress it. We resort to believing there are no fairytales. When we look around, we fall back to remembering that knights in shining armor do not exist. We remind ourselves that this is the real world and not a movie or fantasy land. There are no Nina Mosley's and Darius Lovehall's. So we keep our heads up and we keep pushing on. We sew our hearts back together and pray for the best. Silently, we pray that one day we get a slight taste of what it's like to live in a dream... To all my strong ladies who are waiting for your knight in shining armor, I pray that one day you'll see your dream. Until then, live your life full of love and passion. You shall have your heart's desire. If you don't believe, I'll do all the believing for you."
"he left it all behind. for the sake of our love. nothing could keep us apart. not distance. not time. nor money. he loved me more than life itself. so he showed up at my door. across the country. with calla lilies and a letter. in his back pocket a ring. you are my perfect view. you are my soul. you are more than everything. perfection for me. so passionate and vigilant. my knight in shining armor. coming to fly me away. standing on my doorstep. kidnapping my heart. you told me to come. so here i am. join with me your love. i swear it'll never end. he came to get me. just like i knew he would. i prayed and prayed. just as promised. finally, my reward. a perfect dream's end. fantasies fullfilled. a girl's hearts content. do i dare ever stop dreaming?
Ladies, I don't care who you are, I know for certain that all of you want a knight in shining armor. We all want our guys to ride in on white horses and save us from the burning tower. We all dream of him saying the perfect thing - telling us that he'll always be there and can't live without us. We all want him to take us in his arms and never let go. It really doesn't matter if you've never met him, if you're currently with him, or you've gone your separate ways, 99% of us crave for that man to run to us on some magical whim. We dream of him 'getting it' one day; of having some life-altering revelation and choosing us over everything else. We fantasize that he'll run out the door and break all barriers and obstacles to catch up to us. Remember that scene in Love Jones where Daruis runs through the train station in hopes of catching Nina? That's what you want, isn't it? Believe me, I know. We crave for men to have that burning passion for us that makes it sure he'll do anything and everything; that he won't take no for an answer. You want him to tell you that he understands, he grew, and he changed. Even if you haven't said anything, you want him to magically know your heart's desires and say that he gets it. You want him to say that he's an idiot, and he would be even more of an idiot to loose you or let you walk away. You want your man to run up to you with passion in his heart and tears in his eyes, bearing his entire soul. Men ask us all the time what we want. They tell us to just tell them what to do. Fortunately, the answer is pretty universal. It's pretty much the same for all of us. We want a knight in shining armor. We want him to 'get it' and then proceed to overcome mountains to save us. It's no secret that we're emotional, fantasy-driven, human beings. But in this day and age, we surpress it. We resort to believing there are no fairytales. When we look around, we fall back to remembering that knights in shining armor do not exist. We remind ourselves that this is the real world and not a movie or fantasy land. There are no Nina Mosley's and Darius Lovehall's. So we keep our heads up and we keep pushing on. We sew our hearts back together and pray for the best. Silently, we pray that one day we get a slight taste of what it's like to live in a dream... To all my strong ladies who are waiting for your knight in shining armor, I pray that one day you'll see your dream. Until then, live your life full of love and passion. You shall have your heart's desire. If you don't believe, I'll do all the believing for you."
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Just Like In The Movies
“Life is not like it is in the movies.” That’s a fact that really sucks for me because I wish it were. But I found an idea that works for me and may even be true! Life can be a string of memorable and unforgettable moments. Those are the things to notice. Luckily for me, since I see everything through rose-colored glasses, I notice these moments very easily. Watching a movie I love can be an unforgettable moment for me. Whatever makes me look back and smile. Whatever inspires me is what makes for an unforgettable moment. I’ve had a plethora of them in the last 5 years of my life, some of which I pointed out in the preceding post. But lately, during this time where I’ve had the freedom to look around and be in the moment, I’ve been showered with them. Cooking a new shrimp scampi recipe with a friend, bonding over sangria and margaritas with my sister, having a special phone call with JennWill that just so happens to be right on time, walking through an assembly hall with my mother while discussing paintings of Bible stories, reading identical newspapers in silence with my friend on the C train… I feel like I need to write them all down so that I’ll never forget them. I don’t want to go through a bad spot in life and not be able to recall moments that made me happy; moments that are unforgettable.
Where is all of this coming from you might ask. A movie of course! Lol. “Only You” starring Marisa Tomei and Robert Downey Jr. While watching it, I remembered that I’ve seen it before, but it was a good thing that I bumped into the movie because it reminded me to put it on my favorites list. The first line of this blog comes from “Only You”. It’s a movie about destiny, fate and dreams. While I believe you create your own destiny, I do believe in dreams. My dreams told me not to get married. Hmph! Go figure. The movie is playing again in the background. Giovanni just said this: “In America, you live for work. You stop for nothing. But in Italy, we care for food, for pleasure, for love.” Oh man! I have to get to Italy! Tuscany, Venice…I just want to go. Like drop everything and go. It’s where I feel like I belong right now. I want to go to Rome and then drive down the coast to Possitano like they did in the movie. I need to experience a country where they live for food, pleasure and love. That sounds like my kind of place.
Ok. I have another movie to watch this afternoon. I’m hungry for more inspiration. Catch you on the flip side.
Where is all of this coming from you might ask. A movie of course! Lol. “Only You” starring Marisa Tomei and Robert Downey Jr. While watching it, I remembered that I’ve seen it before, but it was a good thing that I bumped into the movie because it reminded me to put it on my favorites list. The first line of this blog comes from “Only You”. It’s a movie about destiny, fate and dreams. While I believe you create your own destiny, I do believe in dreams. My dreams told me not to get married. Hmph! Go figure. The movie is playing again in the background. Giovanni just said this: “In America, you live for work. You stop for nothing. But in Italy, we care for food, for pleasure, for love.” Oh man! I have to get to Italy! Tuscany, Venice…I just want to go. Like drop everything and go. It’s where I feel like I belong right now. I want to go to Rome and then drive down the coast to Possitano like they did in the movie. I need to experience a country where they live for food, pleasure and love. That sounds like my kind of place.
Ok. I have another movie to watch this afternoon. I’m hungry for more inspiration. Catch you on the flip side.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
he took my breath away - one fantasy down
before i do anything, and because i write everything down, i must have you know that about 30 minutes ago, i happened across the most handsome... mmm. no. that's not the right word. 'handsome' feels too stiff. umm.... let me think...... the most beautiful? no. that's a little too sugary and sweet. i feel like i'm describing terrance howard. well maybe i should just say the finest... naaaww. i don't like that either. using 'fine' is too typical.... he was..... refreshing. that's it. yes. i happened across the most refreshing looking man i have seen in a very long time. and if i were speaking this to you, there would be a pause in between every single word of that last sentence. that's how badly this needs to stressed.
i am so grateful that i was at the place that i was, at the moment i was, and with the person who i was with. because of these things, i was able to be blessed with something special. i was able to have my breath taken away. and for anyone who knows me, you know meaningful that is to me. i romanticize life more than i should and dream of moments where my reality blends with fantasy. where my arms become attacked by goosebumps and my breath becomes short because of something wonderful. where terrific climaxes happen and happy endings live. of course that's not real life, but i desire that.... God smiled down on me and provided exactly that 30 minutes ago.
i understand that he is a human being and is much more than a refreshing face and body, but since i can't and won't have him, i will appreciate him as that one fantasy that actually came to life. =) one fantasy down and many more to go!
mmmm. i still can not believe what i just saw. i hope that i never forget what he looks like.
10:57 - i'm back again. i still have more to say about this man. lol.
i don't think anyone will be able to imagine the stark difference between what was going on in my mind and what was showing on my face. while i could hardly pay attention to the words he was exchanging with my boy, i did notice that he had all of his wits and smarts about him. i think i remember him saying something about working on a project with another friend. from the glow in his face, i'm sure it's going well. or maybe the glow was just from my point of view. either way, even without fully listening, which i couldn't do no matter if i tried, he intrigued me. his presence. the way he crossed his arms over his chest. the way he kept his body open to all 4 of us instead of focusing his attention solely on E. his style. the genuineness in his expression when he hugged his frat brother. i took in everything as i stood there with a calm and simple smile on my face. when E walked me to my bus, i told him that that was another thing i needed to have - instant attraction. he asked me in shock, "he has to be like that?!" - referring to his friend. (earlier, E admitted that he's never before seen the amount of attention that his boy gets.) "wow j. your qualifications are making it really tough. good luck with that." E says. call me a pessimist, but i don't think i'll ever again meet someone, let alone fall in love and marry and man who will blow me away like E's friend did. that's a once in a lifetime thing. and because it happened, i'm satisfied. really and truly, i'm all good. =) today was a good day.
i am so grateful that i was at the place that i was, at the moment i was, and with the person who i was with. because of these things, i was able to be blessed with something special. i was able to have my breath taken away. and for anyone who knows me, you know meaningful that is to me. i romanticize life more than i should and dream of moments where my reality blends with fantasy. where my arms become attacked by goosebumps and my breath becomes short because of something wonderful. where terrific climaxes happen and happy endings live. of course that's not real life, but i desire that.... God smiled down on me and provided exactly that 30 minutes ago.
i understand that he is a human being and is much more than a refreshing face and body, but since i can't and won't have him, i will appreciate him as that one fantasy that actually came to life. =) one fantasy down and many more to go!
mmmm. i still can not believe what i just saw. i hope that i never forget what he looks like.
10:57 - i'm back again. i still have more to say about this man. lol.
i don't think anyone will be able to imagine the stark difference between what was going on in my mind and what was showing on my face. while i could hardly pay attention to the words he was exchanging with my boy, i did notice that he had all of his wits and smarts about him. i think i remember him saying something about working on a project with another friend. from the glow in his face, i'm sure it's going well. or maybe the glow was just from my point of view. either way, even without fully listening, which i couldn't do no matter if i tried, he intrigued me. his presence. the way he crossed his arms over his chest. the way he kept his body open to all 4 of us instead of focusing his attention solely on E. his style. the genuineness in his expression when he hugged his frat brother. i took in everything as i stood there with a calm and simple smile on my face. when E walked me to my bus, i told him that that was another thing i needed to have - instant attraction. he asked me in shock, "he has to be like that?!" - referring to his friend. (earlier, E admitted that he's never before seen the amount of attention that his boy gets.) "wow j. your qualifications are making it really tough. good luck with that." E says. call me a pessimist, but i don't think i'll ever again meet someone, let alone fall in love and marry and man who will blow me away like E's friend did. that's a once in a lifetime thing. and because it happened, i'm satisfied. really and truly, i'm all good. =) today was a good day.
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