As I sit here in the living room with my husband and sister on a Saturday, I recognize how important family is. I have a really great bunch of people in my life. All people who love me and put effort into the relationships they have with me. It makes me think about the past month or so and the number of different things I've been through with my family and have decided write about here in my little space of the Internet.
When I have the sudden urge to write about my feelings, I'm mostly writing from an emotional place. The feelings are raw. They aren't well thought out and they aren't necessarily what's true. It reminds me of a quote from the movie 'ATL'. After the drama went down with T.I.'s girlfriend, T.I. had a little bit of an attitude problem. His uncle came to him though, and said something that's stuck with me. "I want you to recognize the difference between what you feel and what's real."
I've been writing a lot lately about my feelings. And that's exactly what they are. After a few days the sometimes PMS, sometimes emotional, sometimes insane feelings dissipate. They are in fact always temporary... until the next emotional occurrence.
So here's what's real. I have a good life. I am healthy. I have a good relationship with Jehovah. I have no major problems. I have a really good husband who wants to love me like Christ loves the congregation. I honestly am very blessed and love these people sitting here in this living room more than words can express. Because of my emotions, I might make things out to be worse than they are, which I really need to stop. When I'm in the middle of a tough spot, I need to remember the difference between how I feel and what's real.