Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Pouring Applications and Resumes

When he leaves in the morning to head to work like a good husband does, I feel like I'm not pulling my weight. Here he is taking care of the family, and I'm struggling to keep our house clean and have food on the stove when he gets home. This cleaning and cooking thing doesn't get any easier. I thought being unemployed would make a difference but the house looks even messier now than it did when we both worked. I think it's because we live in it more. I'm here all the time, and every Monday we're both contributing to some sort of mess.

Being unemployed was great for a while. But now, not so much. And I mean... I expected this moment to come, so I can't say I'm surprised, but the novelty has officially worn off. I need a job. And of course, as soon as I get a job, I'm going to wish that I had time off to be home... It never fails. The grass is always greener. What I need is a job that works me in cycles. Go hard for a few months, and then work from home lightly for the next few. Wouldn't that be special?

HGTV was supposed to serve as inspiration, but now it's making me feel small. That's what happens when you focus on the material 24/7. I never knew that inspiration could bite me in the butt though. I thought inspiration was supposed to be a positive concept. smh.

I'm tired.

3 comments:

T.C. said...

i think like you said the grass is always greener on the other side...we tend to get in our own way a lot of times...right now GOD has you where he feels you need to be...and please believe i understand cooking cleaning staying home is a LOT of work, working is often times easier from what i experienced...know that GOD placed you were you are supposed to be right now for a reason and in his time it will all work out

miss alisa said...

Tiff took the words out of my mouth. God does all things well and in His time. While we may be uncomfortable in the different seasons of our lives, God has us endure them for a reason. In His time this season will end and there will be a new one. Be inspired by the fact that God wants you to be still for awhile... and trust that He will reveal his reasons in due time! Love you and can't wait to see y'all on Friday!

Anonymous said...

Why not start your own business...then you can work at your own pace!

You can work hard when you want to and when you want to cost...you have that option!!!

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