I'm listening to Drake's mix tape So Far Gone.
I keep hearing about this thing so I figured I need to get up on my game.
I like what I'm hearing so far.
It's not typical.
Gotta reach past the typical and Drake's seeming to do that.
I had one of those deep conversations last night that leaves you feeling stressed out.
But we prayed at the end so it was all good.
Praying always makes me feel better.
When I'm done with this blog, I'm going to apply for another job.
I applied to the ones I really want so now it's time to apply for the ones that provide a simple paycheck.
It appears as if I might be a substitute teacher for a kindergarten class.
My cousin is a principal and needs help.
Three of her teachers are no longer available for some reason.
Doesn't that seem weird?
How does a kindergarten teacher all of a sudden become unavailable?
Maybe she had an accident.
I'm feeling a certain kind of way.
Not sure what that 'way' is though.
I'm just here.
Not really feeling a drive or a purpose.
I need to get rid of that feeling.
Do I feel a lull in my life?
I'm not sure if that's what it is.
I just feel blank, if that makes sense.
Is it weird that I don't want to talk about what I'm doing?
People say that you're supposed to promote yourself and put your stuff out there.
I don't want to.
Maybe that's why certain things haven't happened for me yet.
I just don't want there to be any expectations from anyone.
I want to do what I do for the love of it.
And if I decide not to publish it to the world, then that's okay too.
Expectations take away from the enjoyment.
Drake and Lloyd are singing together.
I like this.
I really like Lloyd.
Alright, I'ma be honest.
I'm feeling like I'm missing someone.
And all I really want is a hug.
I want to press my face into his neck and that's it.
Just breath him in with my eyes closed and then go home.
I need a hug.
But that's neither here nor there because he's in another state.
Yo, I love Drake's voice.
I prefer him as a singer more than a rapper.
But really, he does both quite well.
Tomorrow I'ma see if I can go up to the Black Cat and get my ticket to the Foreign Exchange's show.
J'Davey is performing too.
Haven't seen them in a LONG time.
Can't even find any music from them online.
I would love to hear their new stuff.
Now that it's March, it's time to do my taxes.
I want to get them done next week.
I seriously can use a check from the government.
Throw that whole bad boy on my credit card.
This is not time to play games with debt.
I have things I wanna do in the near future.
What if a significant other said that they couldn't marry me until I got rid of my debt?
I would be shocked, but oddly enough, I would understand.
There's no way I'm getting rid of my student loan debt any time soon, but I understand being free of credit card debt.
These thoughts just put a little fire underneath of me.
Why is it easier to do things for someone else than it is to do things for myself?
I'm motivated when it comes to other people.
But what happens when it's time to take care of myself?
My mom and dad sat with me for a while and helped me pull together some ideas.
My dad's telling me I need to knock down some doors and get what I want.
The way I usually do that is through higher education, but the parentals are telling me that I don't necessarily need that.
I'm not one with a whole lot of connections.
I have them, but I'm not really into thinking about people as connects.
Human beings are human beings.
Drake is doing it again.
He's turning up the vibe quotient.
"I forgot to call you on your birthday."
Go head, big head.
My mother used to say that it's far better to have someone be into you more than you're into them.
In a discussion, I attempted to explain that it's usually easier for a woman to be "into" a man.
That kind of stuff comes easily to the female gender.
So when a man comes around who's crazy about you, who's really into you, who wants everything for you, you should hold on to him.
A man in love is a rare and beautiful thing.
A man in love is a diamond.
Drake and Omarion?!
Now you know.
I have a friend who's falling in love.
He's never been in love before so he's uncomfortable with the feeling.
He told me, "I don't know what's happening to me."
He said that he doesn't know if he can do it.
I told him to do him then.
He said, "But I don't even want to look at anyone else."
When that jones comes down, it's a mother#^*#@&.
He is officially caught between a rock and a hard place.
He wanted to know if it's worth it.
Feeling as vulnerable and open as he does.
Ladies and gentleman, tell me, what's life without love?
Do you know that there are places popping up in the US called "Tent Cities"?
Due to home loss, people are now gathering in parks where they can pitch tents and live there.
Regular, middle class folks like me living in tents with no running water, electricity, or transportation.
What is going on with this recession?
I keep thinking about the Great Depression.
I wonder if they kept statistics on how many people committed suicide during that time.
"Is anything I'm doing brand new?" asks Drake.
Let's talk about the need to keep things fresh and sexy.
Don't let your relationships become boring people.
There's no need to let your relationship climax drop so low that you forget what it's like to have your heart race.
Don't let it become too late.
Apply the concept to family and friendly relationships too.
Surprise someone with a random act of kindness.
Live to put a smile on someones face, ya heard?
What I like about this mixtape is that he uses it as a platform to do everything.
If you sing and rap, you normally tend to clump all of your melodies into one bucket and your hip hop bars in another.
Mesh that mess together.
Make it unique.
I always said that if I made an album, I'd need a little bit of rock, and little bit of Coltrane inspired jazz, a little Coldplay/Radiohead/Frou Frou sounding tune, some crazy Gnarles Barkley like stuff, and a diva track or two.
Put it all on there.
Must there always be a string that ties everything together?
Do you always have to have a theme?
Make it random too.
I'm all about spontaneity.
Houstonatlantavegas by Drake.
It's the last song.
I'm officially addicted to this mixtape.
I need another round of listening.