good morning world!
i'm laughing because if you compare my current attitude to yesterday's, you'd be laughing too. i'm just so glad that it's friday! i haven't had a t.g.i.f. moment in a while. mainly because everyday used to be friday. but regardless, i am so happy that i'm even eating breakfast! yep, i went to the deli and got me the breakfast platter. the breakfast platter ya'll! sausage, eggs, home fries AND toast. on a normal day, i'd chomp on a dry bagel or eat a yogurt and call it a morning. but not today! i'm excited about the prospect of sleeping in. normally i'd be in the ministry but if i dare step outside for some hours, i know i'll lose the progress i made. my head isn't as congested as it used to be and i'm keeping it that way. my WT is almost done so i don't have much to worry about tomorrow. i'm just going to be...
i can't believe it's almost april. remember when i said 'no men in the '09'? well, it's a little early to be saying this but, i don't want that to end! 2009 better slow down! i'm in a really good place right now. you know what i'm really worried about though? you know how we females are when we start liking and loving someone...we put everything and our all into him. that's just how we do. nothing comes before him. sometimes not even ourselves. keeping this 'detrimental' fact in mind, i feel like i wouldn't be able to balance Jehovah and a man. i've been in a situation where i put off God for a man and the results were grim to say the least. that's why i'm praying that i'll have as long as i need to cultivate my relationship with God so that He always remains number one in my life. but yeah, how to balance a relationship with a man and one with God remains somewhat foggy for me. hopefully by the time my future husband makes his intentions known, i'll have my foundation laid. the rest i can work on while in the relationship, cuz i'm sure it's going to take practice and some getting used to. feel me? BUT...check if i get into a relationship with someone who has the same spiritual convictions as me, there might not be an issue! hmm! what a concept! lol.
even though it may not look like it from this post, i have recently discovered that i have a hard time keeping it positive. when i'm down, like i was yesterday, i couldn't figure out how to pick myself up. i mean i know what i know. i know what i'm supposed to do and say, but i couldn't tie the knowledge to my actions. instead of focusing on the positive to pull me out of my slump, i dived into my work - so much so that i'm a lot further along in this monster of a report that the old girl used to be at this point in time. so i guess it all turned out fine, but i need to work on thoughts when things don't go as well as expected. what my friend said to me yesterday (see post below) was so right, but i was ghastly uninspired. =/ add this to the list of things to work on i guess...
one last thing. the fruit of the spirit i'm working on this month is self-control and i must say that i'm getting pretty good at it! i haven't even touched or thought of some of the things i had a problem with. yay me! i think the next fruitage i want to work on is... wait, gotta get the Bible out... long-suffering. no, that's too hard. lol. i think i'ma go for kindness and goodness since they're sorta related. those are two areas that i can definitely improve on.
alright peeps! have a great weekend and happy friday!!!