Thursday, June 28, 2012


The definition of Beauty

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Cars or Babies?

I can't blog from my work computer anymore. That makes me want to kick someone in the face. Or maybe that's how I'm feeling because my manager is freakin annoying right now. Either way, I want to kick somebody in the face.

I'm all confused up in this mind of mines. I'm looking for a new car to purchase which is proving more difficult than I thought. It's also making me think twice about having babies. I saw a bad convertible white Benz the other day and thought to myself, 'why do I want kids again?' Now that I'm off birth control, I'm on a level 4 about this kids thing. Going from a level 12 to a level 4 in a matter of months scares me a bit. What does that mean?! Don't literally answer that question my lovely reader you. Differing opinions are not good for me right now. My motto has always been When You Don't Know What To Do, Do Nothing. I'm sure my feelings will settle on one side or the other soon. What I DO know is that I don't want to get back on birth control so that says something right?

Back to cars... Missy makes me feel like I'm 22. The scratches, the dents, not being able to read the time in my car, the broken CD button... I'ma need my car to catch up to my life. And THAT I feel 100% certain of. You know what I want? Acura or Lexus to make the Kia Optima. The Optima is EXACTLY the look I'm going for. But a noisy ride? Ugh. I want to write an emphatic "I CAN'T" but I might have to settle. Again. There is not another car that appeals to me right now. So my decision is to wait. I have no other choice. Save up a few G's and wait.

Babies and cars. Cars or babies? Don't judge me. I'm not superficial. There are other good reasons to pick "cars" over babies that I'm not explaining here. But if you have any car suggestions, I'm all ears!

Monday, June 11, 2012

Hot Fun In The Summertime

Summer plans!

BBQ/Picnic - ?????
Theme Park - Six Flags with little brother?
Beach - VA Beach and Ocean City
Summer Nights - Screen on the Green? National Harbor evenings?
Concert - Coldplay

Other things I want to do:
Weekend shopping trip to NY
Black Alley shows
Go to Beach Club
Visit museums

So what are you summer plans? Anything interesting? Let's make this summer a good one folks!


Tuesday, June 05, 2012

What's My Identity?

I was watching one of my tv shows this morning and was basking in how womanly the main characters were. Strong. Fierce. Solid. Curvy. Feminine. They were true grown women. Women with confidence. Women with experience. Women who know what they want and what they have to offer the world.

While putting on my M.A.C. red lipstick and I had to pause a little bit while meditating on what a 'grown woman' is. After about 10 seconds, a light bulb went off, I titled my head to the side, looked at myself in the mirror and said 'I'm a grown woman too!' Well I didn't quite say that out loud, but I might as well have because the sentence was so clear in my head. If I were to have this conversation with another, I can already hear the response. 'Well what did you think you were?!' Yes, technically I am a grown woman, but I haven't thought of myself in the way in a very long time.

Then, of course, I began to wonder why. Immediately, I narrowed in on my relationship with my husband. I don't know if it's that he's younger than me and loves to joke, play around and have fun, but I don't feel like a grown woman when I'm with him. Actually, bag that younger-than-me-stuff. Yes we are young at heart together but that's not it. It's more than that. I feel like a female who's under the wing of a man. And that image/sentiment makes me more of a kin to a little yellow, newborn chic than a strong, independent gazelle. Does that make sense? I don't know why I'm likening myself to farm animals but the analogy fits right?

It's interesting how having a husbandly head changes my identity. For sure I used to be that confident, experienced, truly grown woman, especially as a single woman. And maybe that's the way people see me from the outside, but that's definitely not how I feel. And that's not a bad thing. I feel protected. I feel delicate like a well-made vase. I feel like I'm second-in-command, which I am and have no problems with. I like how my husband makes me feel. I love not having to be in charge of everything and having to make major life decisions, difficult decisions on my own. I like being able to watch him handle it all, because he can and does it well. Well of course a woman keeps a household together so I like being in charge without really having to be in charge, if you know what I mean. In any case, I am someone's complement. I am someone's someone. I am attached to someone else. On the outside and to others, I may be what I'm seeing in other women, but I certainly don't feel like one.

But that begs the question...Should having a husbandly head change my identity? I am definitely not the person I used to be when I was single. But there should be things about you that are firm and true. You should have a foundation and know who you are right? So, I repeat. Should having a husbandly head change my identity?

Monday, June 04, 2012

Man Cave Update

We updated the man cave this weekend. I know it's not my go-to room being that it's the "man cave" but boy was I glad to see something happen to that room. You see, I want guests to be comfortable when they come to my house. And since MJ likes to invite guys over to hang, I was really feeling like the man cave needed to be filled out a bit more.

So here's what we did. We went to Ikea looking for this one George Jetson looking chair, but decided against it when we sat in it and felt the coldness and hardness of the thing. After 40 minutes of deliberation, hubby decided on a less expensive alternative in a black leather finish. Half of the time we took was to figure out how to match the chairs with the bright blue sofa that hubby already has in the man cave. To add the inexpensive flair that the room needs, I mentioned needing pillows so we mosied on over to the pillow section which had nothing. On our 3rd or 4th time going back through the same sections at Ikea, hubby looked at the model of his sofa that he has at home and says, "things would be so much easier if the slipcover was this color". Excited by the idea of being relieved from having to decorate an entire room around electric blue, I encouraged him to buy the more subtle but cool grey slipcover. So with the location and bin numbers for the new slipcover in hand, we went BACK to the chairs to reconsider our chair choices. With the slipcover being $250, he decided to downsize from the leather to the cotton chair. So 2 hours after walking into Ikea, we left out with a new look and feel to the man cave sofa and two new chairs to fill out the room.

The next thing we should probably do is paint. I really want this room to start taking shape so paint would be the natural step. Paint makes everything feel different. Hubby wants to go with a greyish silver so we should be able to scope some paint choices out in the next two weeks or so. After that comes the sawhorse table. That thing is going to be cool. Hubby said he wants to build it from scratch so I'm interested to see how it turns out. It should be fun though. I'm thinking we should paint the table that electric blue that was on the sofa. Talk about a PoP of cOloR! And then if we can find a really vintage stool... a workman's stool of sorts...that would be nice. Later on, we can add some storage components, throw some art on the wall, include some accessories and wa-la. Finito!

I wish I could post pictures but my blog has reached it's photo-uploading-capacity. I may need to create a new blog huh?

I'm excited about hubby's man cave. When it's finished and more homey, I'll be able to chill with him down there more often. Not too often, but more often. =)

Friday, June 01, 2012

Happy Friday!

Happy Friday everyone! It's muggy and gloomy as ever but it's still the best day of the week!

I have a wedding to attend tomorrow evening in Williamsburg. I'm pretty sure it's going to be the most decadent princess type wedding I've ever been to. I'm excited to see the razzle and dazzle. I need to glamazon my outfit up of course, so accessories shopping is on the menu for my lunch break. I already bought my glitter fingernail polish. All I need is a necklace, and a banging bracelet. The earrings are pretty much taken care of but if I see something...!

I hope everyone has a good weekend!
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